Grandpa Mosketti

Hey girl- we lost grandpa Mosketti last Friday, December 16th. It was unexpected but he went peacefully in bed at home. You'll know him when he gets there, he's the charming Italian with a great sense of humor, and he should be with grandma, a hilarious vibrant woman who can make any story have you in tears from laughing so much. Keep an eye out for them :) 


It's almost Christmas. I miss you so much....


Love- 
Chapin

New hair.....

I'm getting new hair tomorrow night, remember always calling me the hair natzi because I was always encouraging you to try new things!! ahahahahahaha....you got brave a few times, I was so proud of you :)


In other news, people that call my work are a-holes, 90% of them are ignorant morons. Ex: 


Moron: Is P.L. there?
Me: He's in a meeting can you leave him a vm?
Moron: No I need my stuff now (be advised this moron ALWAYS needs his stuff now)
Me: ok, well he isn't going to be tied up for the rest of the day. 
Moron: Well I need *mumble mumble mumble* by the end of the day, that's what I need
Me: ok, what job was that?
Moron: *click*


Well alright then sir. HAVE A NICE F*ING DAY! 


And that reminded me of when I used to sit over the cubicle wall from you and T and hit the mute button when people would call and be rude and ignorant. And you two would laugh your asses off at my colorful commentary ;-)


*sigh* oh how I miss the days of the mute button. :) Good times. Good times. 

The What Ifs....

Sometimes I find myself doing the 'what if' game in my head. I think....what if you hadn't missed your flight that day? What if I wasn't getting married out of state? What if I had known the situation you were in? What if you had been staying with us? The list goes on and on and on....and makes no difference. You are gone and there's no bringing you back. And I will never know if something would have made a difference. You were chosen by a monster. No one could have stopped that. You didn't know. Until it was too late. I wish I had been there for you, to help you get out of it, I believe you already were trying to get out of it. It hurts my heart to think of the emotional turmoil you were in for so many months, so much more so than I was aware of. I understand why you didn't tell me, but it doesn't change the fact that I wish I had known, so I could be there for you. I miss you so much Blondie. Kendy and I still get together for wine filled bitch session nights at my house :) We will always miss you being there with us....there will always be an empty glass, which should be filled. 


I love you...


Love, 
Chapin

First Real Snow of the Season....

Ah yes, the first real snow of the season is falling today, December 9th. The drive into work this morning was stellar (not). But I do like a fresh snowfall, it is pretty. Andy and I have picked Dec 23rd to do our Xmas shopping. LOL.....last minute, like I said. :)


We are all excited to celebrate Sterling's first Christmas. SO fun. We are hoping to do some family pictures tomorrow at the in-laws home. Remember when you took pictures for my mom's 50th birthday present, we all went to that park and Carly and I had Oscar and Bailey with us and there were some great 'action' shots of one dog or the other trying to take off. ahahahahaha...But the majority of those pics really turned out great. I wish you were here to take these for us. No dogs this time. HA! Just a 3 month old baby, could get tricky. :)


I miss you...


Love, 
Chapin

Holiday Season

Christmas is barreling down upon us! You and I always had the same mentality about Christmas, do everything last minute and hope for the best. LOL...you will be glad to know I am approaching it the same this year. 


This past weekend Andy took me to see Les Miserables at DeVos Hall, it was an amazing show, loved it. Remember when I told you that we were going to see Joseph and the Technicolor Dream Coat at the Civic and you said that sounded so fun that you had seen a show before and liked acting all artsy (hahahaha) and then you said "Joseph and the Technicolor Dream Coat sounds a lot like a story in the bible about Joseph and his coat of many colors." I called you cute and informed you that it was indeed that story. You thought that was hilarious. 


I lost my fist 5 lbs on Weight Watchers as of yesterday. I am trying to get back into running, it's going to be slow going but I am committed. One day at a time. I know you will be with me! Run Chapin run! 


Love, 
Chapin

Puzzle Pieces

It's been a year since we lost you and a lot of us still find ourselves going over what could have happened, still just trying to make some kind of sense as to why you are no longer here, why you were taken so tragically and suddenly. We will never have the answers and I know that. But there will always be a part of me that will hurt for you, that you were dealing with so much on your own, without someone to lean on. And I understand why. I do. But it doesn't make me hurt any less. I can't stand the thought of you being scared and not knowing how to get away. When I feel that way though I remind myself that you are at peace now. And I remind myself that I hurt because I'm still alive. You do not hurt. And that brings me some peace. 


P.S. When Sterling smiles at something I cannot see....is it you? I like to think it is....


Love ya girl, 
Chapin

Memories....

I am going through some old emails from you....remember when you thought Andy worked in Ionia and not ON Ionia? LOL....Remember when Trevor first started playing baseball and I told you he did some things in baseball that he should only be doing in football and you asked what that meant, like was he tackling first basemen or something? LOL....Remember when I told you that Andy was getting his grandma's car because she couldn't drive anymore and he had the Danger Ranger that he couldn't drive in the winter? You were happy for us but then you said: 


I am so not looking forward to the day they tell me, "Kristie, we don't think you should be driving - you're too old."  LOL 


Funny at the time....now it just makes me so sad, you will never be too old to drive. I also read an email about how excited you were when Andy got his job and you immediately told me to get started wedding planning and having a baby. You were all kinds of excited.  :-) I love going through these old messages, it's bittersweet. It reminds me how lucky I was to have you in my life and it makes me miss you that much more....


Love you girl....