It's almost Christmas, I brought your wreath out to you earlier this month. We all miss you so much. I love you! xoxo

Love, 
Chapin 

This time of year is hard, especially mid October through November. I can feel the weight begin to lift a little once we get past November 29th. I miss you so much. We were out with a couple of other couples the other night and the wives were best friends...it made me miss you more than the usual dull ache I feel day in and day out. I miss hanging out with you. I cannot stand that I still don't understand what happened to you or why. Some days are harder than others. I know it would break your heart to see all of us here left hurting so badly, I know you are in a beautiful safe warm place surrounded by happiness. And some days that's enough to comfort me. 

The boys are getting so big, Trevor would totally freak you out with what a young man he is now, but he still cherished the York Peppermint Patties, that is a memory of you he will always have. Sterling is on the verge of starting to talk more I just know it. He's such a little personality and has all of us wrapped around his little finger, you would love him to pieces I just know it. 

I stay in touch with your sister and I'm so excited for her getting to go to PA school soon, she is such an amazing woman, just like you. I plan to stay in touch with your mom as well  especially when Jess leaves for school. Jessie told me that your mom has finished your memory book and that she looks forward to sharing it with me in the near future, I look forward to it and yet dread it a little bit as well. I think you would understand. 

I love you and I miss you.....

Love, 
Chapin

How lucky I am to have known someone who was so hard to say goodbye to...

Birthday

yesterday was your birthday. I don't think the fall season in general is ever going to be the same for me. the pain and hurt will lessen with time, but the memories will never fade and the hole inside will never fill, but that is ok. it is. I know that God has you in His arms and so I will keep you in my heart. I miss you so much....

Love, 
Chapin

Too Long...

I've been away too long, I know. Although I've talked to you a lot away from here. I just wanted you to know that I miss the little things. I miss calling you the minute something goes right or wrong. Calling you to vent, to laugh, to cry. I miss hanging out with you on my deck drinking a glass of wine. There's just a lot going on right now, good and bad that I don't get to hear your take on. It's hard. I'm blessed to have a husband who is my best friend, and I have Kendy, and I have family and all the girls....but, it's not exactly the same. You will always be missing. Your laugh. There is always going to be a Blondie shaped hole in my life for as long as I live. Some days that's harder to deal with than others.

I miss you...

-Chapin

We miss you.....XO

Love,

Chapin

Another Loss.....Another Gain for God

Blondie, if you could just find Brett and hug him for us, that would be great. And I know he will hug you for me. So many losses in a short time here but God has certainly gained some amazing angels. You are missed....I love you

Love,
Chapin