Too Long...

I've been away too long, I know. Although I've talked to you a lot away from here. I just wanted you to know that I miss the little things. I miss calling you the minute something goes right or wrong. Calling you to vent, to laugh, to cry. I miss hanging out with you on my deck drinking a glass of wine. There's just a lot going on right now, good and bad that I don't get to hear your take on. It's hard. I'm blessed to have a husband who is my best friend, and I have Kendy, and I have family and all the girls....but, it's not exactly the same. You will always be missing. Your laugh. There is always going to be a Blondie shaped hole in my life for as long as I live. Some days that's harder to deal with than others.

I miss you...

-Chapin

We miss you.....XO

Love,

Chapin

Another Loss.....Another Gain for God

Blondie, if you could just find Brett and hug him for us, that would be great. And I know he will hug you for me. So many losses in a short time here but God has certainly gained some amazing angels. You are missed....I love you

Love,
Chapin

Dear Blondie- 


We ran the Jig this past Saturday, it was gorgeous weather, can you believe it? Someone from Amway saw my shirt during the run, or in my case, plod, lol....It was sad, but nice to know they are all still thinking of you there as we all do every day. I got beat by a couple of really old speed walkers, but I'm telling you, like Kim said, they were like Olympic speed walkers. hahahahahahaha....


Saw your dad, mom, sis, and Dave & Toni as well, everyone looks great and seems to be doing well. It's good to see them and feel closer to you. 


I have some bad news that I just need to say out loud even though it pains me to do so. Sarah's husband Brett.....he's not doing well Blondie, not well at all, I think he may be joining you sooner than we thought. I don't understand. I know I'm not meant to. That's what everyone says. But I don't understand how I lose 2 young people in my life, 2 young people that I was not/am not ready to say good bye to. And it's painful either way, losing someone the way I lost you or watching it slowly happen...I cannot even articulate the hurt and ache I feel for Brett, Sarah, and Dalton. It's unbearable to even think about. And I feel so helpless....I don't know what I can do or say or how to even help. 


I wish you were here....I miss you....


Love,
Chapin

*Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh*

I am depressed. I have been for at least a good couple of weeks. It seems to just be a general deep funk. I just feel sad and upset by all the unfairness in the world, which is dumb, I know, because God always has a plan, and we are not always meant to understand. But sometimes those plans are a struggle for some. I struggle with why you were taken. I struggle with why Brett, Sarah, and Dalton are going through what they are, I struggle with what a family I don't even know is going through with their 4 year old. I follow their blog, it's devastating, yet they are amazing, like Sarah is amazing, like your family is amazing to me. SO why am I a sad train wreck?! BAH! It shall pass. 


 Tomorrow is your charity zumba event, and I think it is going to be hard. But we will all be together so that will make it easier. It's a great message. So important to get out there.  I hope you will be with us. You will be, you always are. I miss you....


Love, 
Chapin 

Just missing you...

I miss you. I miss you all the time but some days are harder than others. Today is a harder day. there are so many things that happen that I imagine telling you and hearing your laugh. :)

You are missed....always.

Love,
Chapin

Running

I am slowly but surely getting back into running, I go during my lunch hour at work. Today I went 2.1 miles in 30 minutes. I am slowly building back up to where I was before I got pregnant. One mile at a time.

Love-
Chapin