Dear Blondie- 


We ran the Jig this past Saturday, it was gorgeous weather, can you believe it? Someone from Amway saw my shirt during the run, or in my case, plod, lol....It was sad, but nice to know they are all still thinking of you there as we all do every day. I got beat by a couple of really old speed walkers, but I'm telling you, like Kim said, they were like Olympic speed walkers. hahahahahahaha....


Saw your dad, mom, sis, and Dave & Toni as well, everyone looks great and seems to be doing well. It's good to see them and feel closer to you. 


I have some bad news that I just need to say out loud even though it pains me to do so. Sarah's husband Brett.....he's not doing well Blondie, not well at all, I think he may be joining you sooner than we thought. I don't understand. I know I'm not meant to. That's what everyone says. But I don't understand how I lose 2 young people in my life, 2 young people that I was not/am not ready to say good bye to. And it's painful either way, losing someone the way I lost you or watching it slowly happen...I cannot even articulate the hurt and ache I feel for Brett, Sarah, and Dalton. It's unbearable to even think about. And I feel so helpless....I don't know what I can do or say or how to even help. 


I wish you were here....I miss you....


Love,
Chapin

*Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh*

I am depressed. I have been for at least a good couple of weeks. It seems to just be a general deep funk. I just feel sad and upset by all the unfairness in the world, which is dumb, I know, because God always has a plan, and we are not always meant to understand. But sometimes those plans are a struggle for some. I struggle with why you were taken. I struggle with why Brett, Sarah, and Dalton are going through what they are, I struggle with what a family I don't even know is going through with their 4 year old. I follow their blog, it's devastating, yet they are amazing, like Sarah is amazing, like your family is amazing to me. SO why am I a sad train wreck?! BAH! It shall pass. 


 Tomorrow is your charity zumba event, and I think it is going to be hard. But we will all be together so that will make it easier. It's a great message. So important to get out there.  I hope you will be with us. You will be, you always are. I miss you....


Love, 
Chapin 

Just missing you...

I miss you. I miss you all the time but some days are harder than others. Today is a harder day. there are so many things that happen that I imagine telling you and hearing your laugh. :)

You are missed....always.

Love,
Chapin

Running

I am slowly but surely getting back into running, I go during my lunch hour at work. Today I went 2.1 miles in 30 minutes. I am slowly building back up to where I was before I got pregnant. One mile at a time.

Love-
Chapin

Air Quotes.....

Everytime I use inappropriate air quotes I think of you still and always will. Like when A had his danger Ranger and I was telling you a story about it and I air quoted "truck" and you looked at A and said 'Isn't it a pick up truck?' Yes. Yes it was. But I air quoted "truck" anyway. I still use them inappropriately ALL the time. It's charming and quirky. hahahahahahha....

Sterling tried pureed strawberries for the first time, he loved them. :-) He's about 4.5 months old now.

Trevor is growing up way too fast, he looks closer to 15 than 13. And I just cannot believe he is going to be a freshman next year!!! Remember when you used to babysit him? HA! Remember the time I had to go out of town over night for work and you stayed with Trev at the duplex and had a heart attack because Wolverine ran down the basement steps in the middle of the night and sounded like a person?! Wolverine is still fat and sassy and still sounds like a person on the stairs. ahahahahahahaha....

I miss you a bunch....XO

Love,
Chapin

Discussions about you....

This past weekend we drove past where your wedding reception was and it was snowing and blowing much like that same night. Andy and I had a good laugh remembering that you were so worried about me driving that night because of the weather and in your mind I had been drinking, which I had not, at all, because I was still trying to recover from your bachelorette party ("what happened to Chapin? I think 3 bottles of wine happened to Chapin"). So we loaded you and RP into the back of my Impala along with like 8 whole cheesecakes and some decorations and off we went. You kept asking if I was ok to drive, I had to keep reminding you I was completely sober. We got to your house and you HAD to have Taco Bell, but I wouldn't take you unless you got out of your wedding dress and put some clothes on. hahahahaha....So you finally changed and you and I left the boys at the house and went to Taco Bell. Where you proceeded to order approx. $30 some odd dollars of Taco Bell and after every single item you requested "extra nacho cheese". We had loads of food and about 20 little containers of nacho cheese. HAHAHAHAHAHA....Then Andy and I talked about how much you LOVED that cheese when you were drunk, so much so that when you threw a big glob of it onto my car seat you proceeded to scoop it up on a finger and eat it, Oscar fur and all lady! BAHAAHAHAHAHAHA....Oh man you were so grossed out when I told you about that a couple days later. And the other surprise of that night was Andy and I took 2 of the cheesecakes home with us and when we opened one to have some.....there were finger fulls scooped out....yep, while riding home after the reception you opened just about every cheesecake back there and ate some with your bare hands. Wedding dress and all....


I miss you so much....


Love, 
Chapin

Grandpa Mosketti

Hey girl- we lost grandpa Mosketti last Friday, December 16th. It was unexpected but he went peacefully in bed at home. You'll know him when he gets there, he's the charming Italian with a great sense of humor, and he should be with grandma, a hilarious vibrant woman who can make any story have you in tears from laughing so much. Keep an eye out for them :) 


It's almost Christmas. I miss you so much....


Love- 
Chapin